reached sch de tutorial room at 0951.
our same old room.
p508.
haa.
reached le.
onli gan jiong is there.
he more kiasu.
he 0936 reached le.
lol.
den the rest of them slowly came in ard noon time.
we all mugging maths lor.
i practice till i nearly gone crazy.
haa.
reallie chim lor.
Maths Make Me Mad!!!
=D
we left ard 1830 lydat.
wah.
tired.

hmm.
am i still sad?
on the other hand.
or shall i be happy?
im reallie confused now.

yun da jie!!!
all the best for ur results tml kk!
i believe in you!
u can do it de!
=)

had my 2002 paper.
shld be can pass ba.
most of the ans same wif the rest.
so shld be quite safe.
better den 2010 lor.
2010 reallie can gone case man.
ok.
stop taliking abt 2010.
lol.
den aft the paper.
ai ren and her johan went to his working restaurant to eat.
den mi, seline and di ended up went to jalan kayu to eat.
wah.
piggy us.
mi and ai ren reallie aft both paper go eat sia.
sian.
i think aft exam period we realli will be fat lor.
den aft exam we still got 3 daes 2 nights de chalet.
omg.
ai ren.
we siao liao lah.
wahaha!
=D

hmm.
aft we went jalan kayu.
i reached home ard 9+ ba.
den online.
read blogs.
yeah.
den i read his.
hais.
sad.
real sad lor.
i mean.
if he reallie haven forget his ex.
he reallie shld not start a new relationship wif mi lor.
although we onli lasted for 3 weeks.
but now.
i still feel sad.
or tat feeling is being cheated?
hais.
i reallie dunno.
and.
i cried.
sorry.
i noe is not worth crying fo those type of person.
but i still reallie feel sad abt tat.
hais.

jies.
i think i will be alright soon.
and dun bother to go over to his blog to tag anything.
coz i dun wan anything chaos to happen over there.
=)

ya.
aft all these.
im not tat bad aft all.
we still can be friends.
but.
when i think i had such a friend like him.
wat will i feel?
hais.
let nature takes it course ba.
mayb i will forgive him 1 dae?
ya.
tats wat i always do.
tat shld be 1 of mt weaknesses ba.
'soft-hearted'
hais.

yeah.
thank god.
thank dee.
attached yati to my store.
so i no need to conduct the 7pm party.
but still i had conducted 3 parties.
freaking tired.
halfway headache.
wah.
bth``
so punched out at 7.30pm.
did some paper work.
went off ard 8+ lor.

poor joey.
kena misunderstood.
hais.
she told mi.
but it seems like i cant help her much leh.
like no one can help her liao le.
coz i think onli mi noe her 'secret' ba.
tats y she sae im the onli one who can understand her.
ya.
but sorry.
i cant help u.
=(

tml having 2002 paper.
wish mi all the best ba!
=p

hais.
its reallie nv feel good when u fell sick.
whole dae feeling uncomfortable.
sickly feeling.

still hafta go work.
idiot right?
reach store.
li jie told mi tat her tuition cancel.
wah thank god.
den i asked her to take over mi lor.
den i went home and slp lor.
tml.
working 12pm to 10pm.
wth``
10 freaking hours.
somemore plus im sick.
hais.
how i wish there is someone by my side now.

wat a freaking boring dae.
-.-
i suppose to be mugging.
but ended up online-ing.
wth``

im working at 5pm.
hais.
UNFAIR!!!

well.
life is nv fair.

HEY XIU ER JIE!!!
omg.
thanx for ur post.
*touched
hmm.
yup.
its actually not a big deal losing him.
i still haf u ALL great jies and friends by my side.
=)
ya.
it is reallie easy to sae it.
but.
when u reallie wana do it.
u will haf difficulties in doing it.
i will try to think of the bright side.
and oso to continue my life in a meaningful way.

hmm.
i reallie hafta thank god for letting mi noe such great friends.
such great jies.
and oso such a great ai ren when i enter my poly life.
cheer mi up when im down.
given mi countless advice.
but.
who dun wish to haf someone tat can give u unconditional love?
i reallie wish to.
but.
i tot i haf one.
but actually im wrong.
hais.
wat to do.
btw.
ytd i saw him outside the exam hall aft 2010 paper.
he reallie look like when the first time i met him.
the first time he tried to talked to mi.
it reallie remind mi of all the first time!!!
omg.
but now.
all had already become history.
its already past.
it can onli be kept as part of my memories.

went to see doctor in the morning.
nth serious.
hope can recover soon ba.
=)

reach sch ard 12+ to mug.
but dunno y.
all of us got no mood to mug.
im mugging maths.
onli statistics.
wah.
tat reallie sux!
dunno how to do lor.
sian.
siao liao lor.

angry!
i hafta work on both sat and sun.
hell lor!
she can take off for her idiotic tuition.
y can i take off for my exams?!?!
argh!!!

btw.
i think its reallie time for mi to change my character ba.
i think my character reallie bad.
=x

hais.
im sad lah.
terribly sad.
morale real low now.

took 2010 de paper juz now.
had did wrongly total worth of 52 marks!!!
so i means tat i ONLY got 48/100!!!
hais.
hope wun deduct all 52 marks ba.
hope can get some tong qing marks.
=((
dunno y i dun haf the mood to do te paper.
mei you xin zuo.
hais.

aft paper.
mi.
ai ren.
and ai ren's johan went to his workplace and eat.
restaurant wor.
haa.
we eat till damn full.
lol.
=D
we like enjoying le hor.
as if last paper le.
but actually is onli aft the first paper.
wahaha!
den we were talking abt where to go aft the last paper.
the places we wanted to go.
di cant go.
sian.
-.-

tml going to sch mug as usual.
but b4 tat im going to see doctor.
hais.
had been sick for abt like...
1 mth?
cough till as if my lungs coming out soon.
and now plus flu.
xin ku ah!!
=((

morale already damn low for my first paper le.
hope i will do well for the rest of my paper ba.
=)

are u reallie the one who is there to care for mi?
well.
i reallie dunno.
not i dun wana trust.
coz it juz seems like ppl is making use of my 'trust' some time ago.
so.
resulting not to trust ppl easily le.
not as foolish as b4 le.
am i consider foolish?
hais watever.
yeah.
i believe tat aft every relationship will learnt a lesson.
am i consider im learning?
watever it is.
i juz dun wan history to happen again.

wah.
reached sch at 1000.
here is my recipe for todae.

ai ren's mama's beancurd and soya bean.
egg roll.
homemade biscuit by ai ren's johan's mama.
kueh lapis.
hairil's bread wif crab meat n cheese n mayo.
1 tea wif milk.
chocolate.

ya.
i think tats all ba.
=p

finally seline went to sch n mug wif us.
=x

whole dae 2010.
sian.
omg.
tml first paper liao.
-_-''
wish mi all the best ba.

=)

ooo.
todae is another brand new dae.
my todae's mood is totally diff frm ytd's ba.
ytd im too stressed up wif everything.
ended up din revised much.
although all my notes are infront of mi but i dun understand.
yeah.
den todae.
i had done 2 sets of my past year paper for 2002.
and abit on 2010.
hee.
yeah.
im improving!
=p

had ate ALOT these few daes.
hor ai ren?
siao liao lah.
seriously will get fatter during exams period.
let u noe wat i ate in sch todae and i think u will be shocked!
pineapple tarts.
prawn crackers.
yong tau fu.
1 coffee wif milk.
2 tea wif milk.
cheese tau fu.
wah piang.
omg``
-.-
im looking forward for tml's recipe!
ai ren i wan beancurd!!!
LOL!!!
=D

tat seline damn stylo.
nv join us mugging in sch since mon.
heard tat she still went to work on mon.
stylo sia.
steady lor she.
todae heard tat her grandma admitted to hospital.
well.
i cant sae anything to this.
=)
ai ren sae dun play play lor.
sekali she mug alone at home like siao.
mayb worst den us?
lol.
err.
somemore those guys sae tat her 2005(trouble shooting) de reports some better den us leh.
see.
mai siao siao hor!
ai ren.
we lose liao lah!
lol.
=P

ai ren and mi had already planned where are we going straight aft our last paper.
haa.
im the veri on one.
but dunno the other 2 on or not leh.
sian.

oh ya!
btw.
i saw iris yap ytd.
on my way home in bus.
she went to my sch to see her bf.
she in my sch but she nv call mi.
bo xim?
lol.

hai.
im such a failure.
a total failure?
juz simply cant do well in anything and eveything.
recently.
everything sux.
exam sux.
work sux.
family sux.
love sux.
i dunno y.
mayb exam coming.
it reallie stress mi ALOT.
and all the recent stuffs tat had happen to mi.
had reallie made mi so damn freaking vexed.
i think i will be crazy soon if all these continues.

sometimes.
i reallie feel veri tired of living.
izzit better tat i end my life?
so tat i wun be stress.
and oso wun be vexed for anything.

i juz wan a simple life.
tats all.
=)

went to dee's wedding on sat.
saw desmond.
sort of shock to see him.
shld i sae him heartless?
not gentleman?
din even bother to sae a 'hi' or smile at mi.
not to mi.
at least come over to my table to sae 'hi' to those aunties and mgrs.
not he dunno them.
he noe them!
even wei jie and jin kok came over to talk to us.
christina smiled at us.
except him!
bloody hell.
such a heartless creature.
lucky his sister not as heartless as him.

work on sun.
SUX!!!
tat lijie.
sabo-ed mi.
she reallie meant it or she reallie dunno.
i dun gif a bloody damn to it.
i juz felt im being sabo-ed.
so wat if u are having o level?
BIG DEAL?!
juz fuck off lah u!!!

i noe ALOT of ppl out there dun haf any good impression of working at mac.
pay so freaking low.
yet hafta do alot of things.
ya.
i've heard tons and tons of these kind of remarks from dae 1 i work till now.
i believe alot ppl out there.
dunno wat are all the advantages/benefits/previlege offered.
and mi?
dun even bother to explain.
i mean.
work is work.
pay is pay.
so wat if i work in a place wif a veri high pay.
and i dun like the work tat i hafta do.
dun u think its veri hard to earn tat HIGH pay?
ya.
its good tat u work in a place tat u like and oso offered high pay.
but.
i dun think everything is perfect eveytime.
as long as im happy wif it.
im fine wif it.
im satisfied wif it.
i think pay is not as impt anymore ba.
if ppl still thinks tat mac offered such a low pay.
den y are there the most number of outlets in singapore?
den y is it the biggest fast food restaurant company in the world?
im saeing all these is bcoz recently someone talked abt it.
and im quite fed up ba.
but.
no harm lah.
i juz dun like ppl saeing bad things to where im from.
be it workplace.
be it schools.
or even be it countries.
i juz dun like it.
its ok de.
i noe there are some of my colleuges haf the same thinkings as mi.

hais.
ok.
enough of my nagging.
sorry.

juz now ivy call mi.
ask mi can work mah.
wt..
im not tat bad lah.
i sae can.
0900 to 1530.
so im able to go to dee's wedding dinner.
haa.
meeting wawa at farrer park station at 1915.
yupx.
hope i will enjoy my dae ba.
=)

had my internet computing paper.
was ok lah.
wat i studied came out.
tats good lah.
oso came out those tat i din studied.
i choose not to do them lor.
and oso of coz came out those tat i din studied but hafta do it.
coz 5 choose 4 mah.
so anyhow write some relevant rubbish lor.
haa.

den aft paper.
ai ren went dating wif her johan.
lol.
tat seline oso went dating.
dunno y her bf can book out de.
funnie``
onli left wif di, jinlong, philip and mi went study.
we 4 went canteen buy some makan.
den went to look for tutorial room.
searched from level 4 to level 7.
jia lat sia.
den finally the LAST room.
is empty.
found by philip.
den he like made some stupid reaction ask us in.
lol.
bth``
aft awhile gan jiong, guang hui and nisa joined us.
no dai dee todae.
coz poker wif my ai ren.
but got discman and speakers.
party time.
haa.
i studied 2002.
philip oso.
gan jiong zo bo.
di, nisa, jinlong and guang hui studying for their e-commerce paper.
their paper at 1630.
i left ard 1600.
den the rest of them went for their paper lor.

i went j8.
yeah.
to purchase disney on ice tix!
14 march.
row 10.
la la la.
shld be not bad ba.
i go concert everytime first few rows de.
lol!
im going wif sao wee!
haa.
shu fang auntie not going le.
she asked mi bring him go can le.
haa.

hais.
my mood now totally sux to the core k!
feel like crying!
argh!

ppl kept on telling mi not to think so much.
but..
sorry.
i cant stop myself from thinking.
a few of my ger-friends are lydat.
im one of them too.
hais.

think.

think..

think...

let mi now go and haf a good slp.
and start a brand new dae.

hopefully ba.
=)

分手第七天

很想知道你最近过得怎样
是否还像以往不多话
很想拨通电话问你好吗?
却怕听你声音会更伤

分手第7天
就像永远
对你的思念一天加多一点
分手第7天
就像永远
每当闭上双眼
你就在我眼前你就在眼前

很想握你的手
重新来过
却知不可能的事太多
分手有时不是为了谁错
只能默默接受着心痛

分手第7天
就像永远
对你的思念一天加多一点
分手第7天
就像永远
每当闭上双眼
你就在我眼前你就在眼前

分手第7天
就像永远
对你的思念一天加多多一点
分手第7天
就像永远
每当闭上双眼
你就在我眼前你就在眼前

ytd had my marketing paper.
okok lah.
more difficult den common test 1.
shld be can pass tat module ba.

todae went to sch to mug internet computing.
sianz.
damn lot of theory.
hope tml de paper will be easy.
lol.
=D
hope will pass ba.
good luck!

kinda sad now.
my heart will still hurt sometimes.
i dun wan to.
the feeling sux.
but i cant stop my heart to hurt.
hais.
wat to do?
wat can i do?
will time heal my pain?
again?
hais.
hope so ba.

i hope.

i hope..

i hope...

Happy Valentine's Day!
to mi?
its juz another normal dae for mi.

met june ard 1530 at j8.
we watched fun with dick and jane.
its a funny but stupid show ba.
lol.
afterall not bad lah.
aft the movie.
ruizhu and hung ming came and meet us.
waited for tat shinyi.
aft tat went dinner at ajisen.
den went back to sch ard 1920.
reached sch ard 1950.
i was shocked sia.
tat jinlong buy ferrero rocher for those single onli.
so im included.
dan oso.
haa.
my v dae gift?
LOL!!!
=D
at j8 saw so many gers hold onto roses.
yeah.
im sort of envy ba.
i wish.
i wish..
i wish...
seline got sunflower from her bf!
=)

ya.
went for my lab test.
got my waveform.
tats 60% of the whole test le.
den till the codeword part.
siao liao.
dunno where the hell the error is.
den last min the teacher gif hint.
ya.
den i found out the error le.
BUT!!!
i write the wrong pin number.
coz i read the IC chip upside down.
WTH!!!
i noe the ans de lor.
hais.
sad lah.
can pass can le.
hopefully get a B ba.
coz the teacher sae most of our class can get B and above ba.
and.
he got the feeling tat 1 of them will fail.
haa.
ai ren u noe who?
=p

tml marketing paper!!!
i haven study yet!!!
siao liao.
so tml going to sch early to study lor.
those guys oso going.
ask mi to bring disc man.
den jinlong bring speakers.
haa.
we going there party again?!
dai dee?!
LOL!!!
=D

all the best for my paper ba.
=)

wth.
went to sch.
slack for the whole dae.
jabo 2002 lecture.
den juz went for maths lecture for 1 hr.
den end liao.
den in sch.
hearing ppl ard mi keep shouting.
'bitches'
'bastard'
'faker'
'sucker'
my ai ren and seline lor.
lol.
=D
saeing abt him lor.
den hor.
juz now he walk behind mi.
den my ai ren faced him mah.
who ask him extra go look at my ai ren.
den my ai ren diao him.
lol.
=p
den yun tagged his blog too.
he replied.
omg``
hmm.
im thinking.
is he angry?
but.
y do i bother he angry or not?
hais!
hmm.
i think wat seline told mi is correct ba.
i had already xian(4) xia(4) qu(4) le.
she's right.
hais.
y am i keep on hurted by GUYS over and over again?!
one time?!
two times?!
three times?!
when the hell will it stop?!
argh!!!

yeah.
i think i shld be happie ba.
my friends are always there.
supporting mi.
to console mi.
concerned abt mi.
thanx ai ren and seline for 'shoutings' here and there.
thanx jies for 'tags' here and there.
appreciate it.
without u all.
i reallie dunno wat i will be now.
i reallie dunno at to do lor.
hais.

den went bugis aft sch wif ai ren and her cousin.
both of them buying v dae present.
-.-
haa.
ai ren bought perfume for her johan
echo``
nv hear the brand before.
but it smell nice.
and ai ren oso bought the guess perfume.
hee.
i bought it too.
=P
for $73.
coz ai ren bought 2 mah.
the lady discount for her.
den i buy she oso discount for mi.
thanx ah ai ren.
hee!
saw my yuan mei mei at bugis.
den ai ren kena shocked.
lol.
=D

hmm.
not in the mood to continue liao.
...

back from work.
work was quite ok.
not too bad.
morning bosses travel.
fred was as friendly.
the first time jeffery talked to mi.
asked abt mi.
omg.
i was stuned.
and tat toh.
face forever BLACK.
all the bosses i noe.
i dun like toh the most.
his face reallie forever freaking black de.
not onli i sae tat.
even other store de ppl oso agree.
lol.
den conducted 3 parties.
was ok.
juz tat cheryl nearly made mi crazy.
=x
hmm.
next sun dee ROM-cum-wedding dinner.
still not sure can go or not.
tml calling store wana ask faridah help mi find attachment star.
best topcat oso attach.
hee.
den juz now wawa called store.
so co-incident i ans the call.
so she ask mi going or not lor.
if going juz inform her den can meet and go together.
AND MARIE!!!
so long nv see her le.
miss her.
miss all her craps.
miss all her singing.
miss all her dancing.
LOL!!!
=D
and shld be some more old friends-cum-collegues ba.
heard tat got hidayah.
faisal.
plus wawa and marie lor.
yup!
=)

congrats to desmond's good o's results.
16 points if i nv rmb wrongly.
he's taking business course.
he sae shld be going tp ba.
yeah.
tats wat he wana do.
good for him lor.
=)

my yuan mei mei resigning end of march.
so shld haf some more time to search for hamtaro for her.
=p

common test and exam coming!!!
omg!!!
study``
sTuDy``
StUdY``
STUDY!!!
=x

argh!
read his blog!
ANGRY!
BASTARD!!!

i had been rotting since afternoon.
and i went to slp.
coz reallie got nth for mi to do lor.
den ard 4.30pm
store called mi.
i noe nth good will happen.
janice asked mi to go work.
my lao bu mc.
lol.
ok lor.
i worked from 1830 to 2130.
den 2200 sharp ciao le.
dun haf the urge to stay there.
haa.

tml working at 0930.
argh!
hate it!!

ytd.
was one of my big dae ba.

reached sch ard 1030.
met ai ren at fj.
to study maths quiz.
normal distribution.
binomial distribution.
poission distribution.
yeah.
i oso agree tat statistics sux!
=x
den ai ren was doing her c pro flowchart.
had our breakfast-cum-lunch ard 1130.
aft tat went to html at 1200.
tat lesson oso sian.
i continue study my maths.
till i slp.
-.-
lol.
and oso.
i was kept on repeating.
'liang dian ban'
'2.30pm'
ya!
tats the time o lvl results released.
i repeat until ai ren nearly took her slipper and throw at mi.
LOL!
=D
2pm.
maths tutorial.
maths quiz lor.
im nervous le.
not coz of maths quiz.
coz of o's results.
i placed my hp on my table.
did my maths quiz.
did halfway.
hp vibrate.
ai ren looked at the clock.
2.30pm sharp.
read the msg.
yun told mi i got 7.
D7.
sort of happie + relieved.
coz no need to take anymore eng paper!
but oso kinda sad lah.
coz in o lvl standard it still consider fail.
at least i can get my diploma le.
=)
wang dan got E8.
she is sad abt it.
of coz sad lah.
she retake again this year.
retake the 3rd time le.
so total 4 times le leh.
ke lian..
hmm.
aft tat went for maths lect.
statistics again.
sux!
=p
den 2010 lect.
sing sock hiang.
ja bo ah!
lol.
went to elp to 'copy and paste' c pro de lab work.
went into the LT.
ai ren and mi took our bags out.
den went out daidee-ing wif gan jiong, philip and norman.
lol.
den the lect end at 5 instead of 6.
seline and di came out.
oso dunno y they wana stay inside.
=P
den ai ren, seline and mi went to j8 shop shop.
haa.
ai ren went of aft awhile.
she going for her uncle bdae dinner.
left mi and seline shop lor.
saw the belt yun and mi bought it at bugis.
i asked the price.
$24.90.
but we bought it at $18.
phew``
heng ar.
lol.
=D
the belt seems quite common le sia.
saw ai ren de friend wore it.
hers is brown.
saw another ger working at j8 fila oso wearing it.
hers is black.
den the shop i saw it selling was white.
haha.
we saw a heels quite nice.
its brown.
=)
oso bought some stationaries at popular.
exams coming den realise tat most of my stationaries running out le.
den seline got a calculator for FREE.
wth!
coz the cashier din scan it and put in the plastic bag le.
not we nv pay.
is she nv scan.
den we juz walk out lor.
=x
LOL!
i was looking hamtaro stuff toy.
wanted to buy for my yuan mei mei.
she is reallie confirm resigning le.
SAD!!!
she buy mi a main bao chao ren de toy.
coz she sae i look like mian bao chao ren.
den i sae she look like hamtaro.
tats y i wana buy one for her.
but the whole j8 like cant find 1 hamtaro.
sad``
im still looking for it..
had our dinner at long john.
there's a BIG group of students.
duuno from which sch.
made mi so freaking angry and fed up!
i oso bought a watch for $15.
thanx seline for argueing the price for mi.
=)
not pink anymore.
its black.
hee.
=p
i oso bought some stuffs at ntuc.
aft all our shopping.
its already going to 10pm le.
wah.
pro ah.
j8 oso can shop so long sia.
haha.
seline bought lighter and hp pouch.
and a FREE calculator!
=D

hey yun..
both my friends oso sae tat the guess perfume is nice.
=)
but 1 of them sae the bottle is not nice..
haa.
ya.
ai ren its u lah.
dun smile smile.
=P

ytd ard 11+pm i called store for my schedule.
june ans.
she told mi tat im not working on sat(tats todae).
good ah.
still cant believe it.
lol.
but sun working 930am to 6pm.
sian.
hate to work morning.
-.-

went to see doctor this morning.
had been coughing for the the past week.
*cough cough

ITS A BRAND NEW DAY FOR MI!!!

reached sch ard 0800 sharp.
straight heading towards tutorial room.
2010 revision.
we ate kueh lapis.
ai ren brought it.
thanx ah.
its so 'NICE'.
lol.
=D
aft tat 3hrs of revision.
break.
den 2002 2hrs lect.
he oso doing revision.
but the way he doing revision sux.
ai ren and mi bth.
halfway we left.
haa.
den aft tat is 2002 tutorial.
oso revision.
whole class onli 10 ppl there.
wat the heck!
haa.
i oso do nth there.
i slp.
-.-
aft tat is html.
i present my website le.
den no need to go liao.
wah.
lydat i 1100 can go home liao sia.
waste my 3hrs there.
den i went off at 1500.
saw shan!!
so long din see her le.
walk out of the sch wif her.
ai ren they all hafta go present their html.
den i went home.
meeting yun at 1820 at bugis.
reached home ard 1600 lydat.
took a short nap.
wah!
nearly overslept.
haa.
but managed to wake up and meet her.
yeah.
we had our dinner at V8.
not bad.
hey thanx for the dinner! =)
we went to shop aft our dinner.
den saw hairal(di's friend) and his gf.
sae hi to him.
but he crap wif mi.
-.-
haa.
den yun brought mi to bugis point.
i din even heard of tat.
we bought a belt there.
went off at 2100 ba.

sometimes i reallie wish i can spend money without so much thinking.
how i can i can spend the money i earned.
well.
mayb my mother is doing this coz for my future.
mayb i will appreciate it in the future.
=)

yun aka da jie..
i oso believe im stronger``
thanx.
=)

im asking yun to help mi check my eng result tml.
*PRAY!!!

zhi wei juz now sms mi told mi tat he's coming singapore this coming june.
well.
i'll see if he reallie come.
=)

its EARLY in the morning.
and im here to blog.
coz i reallie cant get into my dreamland.
woke up at 0430.
and tats it.

strictly consider ytd.
we're finished.
yeah.
we broke up le.
fast ah?
my shortest relationship.
3 weeks.
sort of expected le ba.
coz the way he treated mi the past few daes.
ya.
hmm.
sad?
like wat i told my ai ren.
sad is of coz will be sad de.
but i shld be alright.
dun worry.
i wun go jump or wat de lah.
hmm.
but i still treasure the daes and times when we are together.
those sweet memories.
hmm.
i think he read my previous post.
and he sms mi.

'hey girl. i think i should just let ya know. my heart's pretty screwed now i guess. i feel tt i've got problem talking to u, communicating with ya. we've got diff frequency diff channel. i think we actualle rushed too hurriedly into this relationship.so now it resulted like this so quickly. so for now i guess it's better for us to be jus normal friends first and let us concentrate on our studies first yea. i don't wan yaself and myself to continue hurtin'

my heart sank when i receive this sms.
heartbroke.
den i reply him.

'hmm okok.. anyway glad to noe u.. wish u all the best in watever u do!! :)'

den he reply mi again.

'ok thanks.u too yea.take great care of yaself. and to let u know also, i still can't get a girl out of my heart yea, my ex gf. even though it's been long sinced i talked to her or something. yep i'm really sorry for all i caused. thanks for everything also.even though we ain'table to last. at least we have some sweet and happy memories no doubt. i guess i'll just continue my life alone yea. gd luck in everything ya do, ya o lvl eng. bla bla bla'

...
i dun wana continue.
i cried.
not coz we had broke up.
its coz im angry.
he cant get his ex out of her heart and still strat a new relationship wif mi?!
WTH!!!
im damn angry wif tat lor.
ARGH!!!
and i din reply him aft tat.
i angry till dunno wat to tell him!

no more dear dear.
BUT!
my 6 JIES and AI REN is always there for mi.
correct?
=)

and oso coz of him.
i had changed my blog password.

went to auntie irene's place for dinner.
yea my mother's gang.
cny gathering ba.
auntie lilian and ms wong was there too.
auntie irene sae i fat liao!
-.-

sean is so kawaii!!!
he's 8 mths old.
=p

presented my html.
presented my c pro.
now onli left wif c pro de flowchart.
troubleshooting de lab test next tue.

can tell mi wat are u thinking?
can tell mi wat u feel?
i dun wan u to be beside mi and ur heart is not there.
i will feel more hurt.
i will rather u tell mi straight everything.
i've tried.
is there any chance for mi?

sob.
cry.
hai.

im dead..

oh ya!
ytd when i reached sch.
my ai ren, seline and di.
tricked mi.
bluffed mi.
when i found out tat they are juz joking.
they 3 reallie nearly made mi cry man.
den i LOL.
till my face red.
ai ren.
thanx for ur joke ah!
=D

now i dun wish for or hope for anything more.
i juz wan everydae to be a new beginning for mi.
leave ytd aside.
and haf a brand new todae.
=)

recently.
when im happie.
i can happie to the max.
and when im sad.
my face can be like charcol.
hmm.
ya.
small little thing u do or u sae reallie can caused mi happie to the max.
and oso small little things u do or u sae can caused mi to be sad.



juz now my dear dear told mi tat when he first talk to mi.
im veri attitude.
lol.
ya.
now think back.
the way i talk to him reallie veri attitude.
coz i dun reallie talk much to ppl im not tat close wif.
haha.
den when im close to the person le.
u will noe how NOISY i am le.
correct?
lol.
=D
hmm.
juz now wat my dear dear ask/told mi.
reallie shocked mi.

hmm.
ya.
i agree tat things do change as time goes.
can anything remain unchange?
i doubt so.
or..
WAT can remain unchange?
well.
i reallie haf no idea.



hmm.
recently dunno wth had happened to mi.
somehow or rather got pissed off when ppl call mi.
'EH!'
err.
juz dun like it lor.

LUVINA:
hey ger!
juz read ur blog.
im kinda sad for u too.
muz take care of urself too kk?
wish ur mother get well soon k!
=D
sm:)e

reached home ard 130am.
acc my dear dear mahjong-ing.
lol.
=D



hmm.
sth u may think tat its insignificant.
but to mi.
it made a big different to mi.



juz now sth made mi remind mi of bartley sch motto.
facta-non-verba.
deeds not words.
yup!
i reallie totally agree wif tat.



later working at 12pm.
sad liao lor.
all my mgr kakis gone le.
louise tendered her resignation letter le.
hais.
SADED!
although she everything suan mi.
bully mi.
and she is oso the first person to slap mi.
LOL!
but its all joking de!
and now she left le.
no more jokes from her liao.
i scared work will be sian sian le.
hais.
and the other one.
samuel left.
ya.
again.
he transferred to UBKR.
hais.
but he veri good leh.
b4 he left.
his last dae he called mi.
let mi noe tat he is leaving.
at least he is not heartless.
although everytime suan mi.
he is a good guy afterall k!
wahaha!!!
=D
his first dae aft he left is on my birthdae.
and he left on 1feb.
saded.
=(
i promised myself tat i will tell him my eng result once its out.
coz he helped mi wat.
yup!
and i oso promised tat i will bring him good news de.
=)
hmm.
both of the mgrs brought mi joy and laughter during the daes im working.
and now.
they left.
will i haf my joy and laughter back?
i doubt so ba.
hmm.
and the other thing.
june from UBKR transferred to kallang.
my store lor.
she ah.
noe her le lor.
she ever attached to kallang b4.
she okok ba.
she she kaki wif faridah and serene de leh.
and i dun wana kaki wif them.
wah.
like tat siao liao lor.
den i told samuel tat i wana transfer to UBKR.
he sae can.
i resign kallang and join there lor.
he sae tat if i die die wana resign they can do nth to mi de.
but.
if i tell whoever i wana resign.
they will sure poh loh soh mi to stay de.
coz so freaking in need of crews.
den.
mi?
this kind of person.
sort of soft hearted de.
poh loh soh liao.
i will sure sae.
'okok lah.'
so i will rather dun try.
coz i dun like to do things tat haf veri low chance of success.
den mi wif this kind of character.
die lor.
hais.
wat to do?
tats mi.
-_-"



exam coming!
in less den 1 mth if im not wrong.
not even prepared yet.
the worst thing is.
i reallie feel tat my life is in a real mess right now.
oso dunno wat the heck happen to mi?!
i wana my proper life.
my simple life.

juz finished half of my c pro mini project.
its 3am.
im real tired.
update asap.
ciaoz.

dear..
thanx for the amount of love u had given to mi.
i still admit tat im not a veri good gf.
hope tat u will be there for mi.
hope tat wif ur help, advices and everything.
i will turn to a better mi.
stop and get rid all my bad habits.
dear..
thanx for not giving mi up irregardless of all my bad points.
=)

IM BACK!!!
frm msia.
wahaha.
=D

27jan:

recalling..
met dear dear early in the morning.
8+ ba.
went to store.
calcualate star and topcat incentives.
den went over to his tpy hse.
help his mum to buy some cny stuffs.
den he did some clean up.
skipped my html lesson.
to acc him.
hee.
=p
den onli went to sch for maths tut and lect.
tat dae sch end at 4pm.
den went home on the spot.
coz going msia!
den hor.
seline keep wanting to jio us out.
none of us free.
we reallie not free.
not dun wana go out.
now she noe the taste of asking ppl out den ppl reject her le ba.
noe y now she keep asking us out?
coz her bf went ns le mah.
aft sch nobody acc her.
den stick to us.
b4 her bf went ns.
aft sch ciao liao.
meet bf.
now no bf.
stick to us.
wth.
think we all is wat ar.
this is wat ai ren and mi expected will happen de.
ya.
we are right.
hmm.
ya.
aft sch.
went home.
did last packing of my stuffs to msia.
den went jb.
yeah wif my mum and bro.
ah lai kor kor drove us back to msia.
started our journey at 10pm.
not reallie comfortable.
coz in car quite squeezy.
hafta sit there for abt 5hrs.
dear dear.
missing you lots!

28jan:

den finally reached klang.

at ard 330 or 4 am.
den er jiu and san jiu picked us up frm there.
den ate previous night de dinner-cum-supper ba.
haha.
den went back to sasaran.
yeah.
half my hometown ba.
lol.
where my late grandpa lived.
reach ard 5am.
chat awhile.
slp awhile.
till ard 8+ 9 lydat.
wake up.
washed up.
went to al li kor kor de hse.
'dig' him wake up.
for breakfast.
bad hor.
lalala.
bak kut teh for breakfast.
yummy.
nicey.
msia and spore de bak kut teh is diff de lor.
aft tat went back.
seems like nth to do.
slp again.
haha.
den ard noon time.
bai bai.
den had lunch.
nth to do again.
slp again.
kinda sian lah.
wait till ard 4+ lydat.
my da jiu reached.
drove mi, mum and bro to kl.
my da jiu's place.
den bye to sasaran.
went to kl le.
frm sasaran to kl de car journey ard 1hr lydat.
reach ard evening.
had dinner.
yeah.
my da jiu is a great cook!
yummy!
=)
den went carefour shopand bought some stuffs.
went back.
den aft tat help my dua kim to do some bai bai de stuffs.
wif my cousin.
her daughter.
ya.
den watched tv.
watched vcd.
dear dear.
as usual.
missing u lots lots!

29jan:

1am.
my dua kim and da jiu bai bai.
my cousin and mi help here and there lor.
aft tat continue watched vcd.
till 3am ba.
den fell asleep.
haha.
hmm.
den woke up ard 10+ lydat.
i woke up coz i heard someone watching the vcd.
its a drama series.
ya.
my da jiu watching.
den i watch oso lah.
finish watching liao.
ard noon liao.
my da jiu cook breakfast.
aft tat.
was doing nth ba.
den late noon my da jiu ride motor.
ride my cousin and mi out for tea.
msia motor can haf many ppl de lor.
haha.
aft we bought lioa.
guess wat?
his motor got no more petrol.
-_-"
we 3 walked frm the coffee shop back.
lucky not far.
haha.
den reach home.
den he prepare steamboat for us.
yeah.
nicey.
haha.
keep on eating and sleeping.
and nth else.
haha.
aft tat.
mi, my bro and my da jiu de son(my cousin) play mahjong.
well gamble ba.
haha.
yeah.
im a beginner.
but i won them.
i won $18.
ringgit lah.
beginner oso can win them.
wahaha!
=D
den had dinner.
see eat again!
haha.
aft dinner.
da jiu drive us to my ah yi place.
oso at kl.
journey ard 30min lydat.
reach there.
wah crowded lor.
my ah yi and her 2sons and daughter mahjong-ing.
ah yi de eldest daughter(my cousin, ah wan jie jie).
her 2 sons and daughter was there too.
yeah.
my niece and nephews ba.
haha.
cute!
but naughty like hell.
reallie bth they 3.
aft awhile.
ah yong jie jie reached.
ah yi de 2nd daughter.
her 2sons and daughter.
haha.
totally the 6 of them.
wah!
bth them ah.
naughty.
haha.
scold each other.
fighting.
bite each other.
i oso play toghter wif them lor.
haha.
feel so young at tat point of time.
youngest 2yrs old.
oldest 8yrs old.
onli see them once a year.
den ah yi sae dunno they rmb us or not leh.
wait they think y suddenly see us den suddenly nv see us.
haha.
dear dear.
missing mi lots too right?
i miss u real lots!

30jan:

woke up ard 630am.
coz i heard my niece and nephew talking in the living room.
they din went home the previous night.
so i went out sit.
talk to them.
play wif them.
wahaha.
den my ah yi already cooking curry chix and fry hot dog.
to bring to sunway lagoon!
yeah!
yippie!
we all total ard 20 ppl went.
big grp hor?
haha.
we reach ard 1030am.
den went to the pool and play.
wif all the 6 nieces and nephews.
tats y we all din went to play those exciting de stuffs.
the most exciting one i played is a slide lor.
when slide down quite fast de.
i carry my 4yr old de nephew to play.
he not scared sia.
slide a few times.
accidentally drank the pool water.
he scared liao.
dun dare to play liao.
but din cry lah.
haha.
cute leh he.
i love tat nephew the most!!!
=p
aft sunway.
all tired sia.
went back to ah yi hse.
ah wan jie jie and ah yong jie jie went too.
so..
6 of my lovely nieces and nephews are there too.
wah!
wana rest awhile oso cannot lor.
they are there playing.
so noisy.
haha.
watch tv.
watch them playing.
den at went out dinner lor.
aft tat went a giant supermarket shop awhile.
den went back to ah yi place.
its already 10pm le ba.
the jies din came over.
coz they all are tired and their kids are tired too.
played for the whole dae liao.
haha.
mi oso.
tired lor.
bathed.
went to slp.
are 11+pm.
dear dear.
although i enjoyed myself.
i still miss u lots as usual!

31jan:

ard 830am lydat.
a voice shouting.
'ooi wake up for breakfast lor!'
wah.
tats my ah yi shouting.
haha.
den wake up.
washed up.
went breakfast wif ah yong jie jie family.
ate dim sum.
msia dim sum rox lor.
more variety den spore de.
haha.
aft tat went to a po po de hse.
den went back to ah yi hse.
bathed.
went lunch.
ate yong tau fu.
their yong tau fu rox too!
wahaha!
den yi zhang dorve us to bus station.
to go back spore lor.
sad.
hafta leave them le.
hai.
reallie onli can see them once a year.
hmm.
next year de cny.
ah yong jie jie and ah wan jie jie sae wana bring us to cameron highlands!
hee!
yippie!
looking forward to tat!
i nv went there b4.
haha.
hmm.
den reached spore ard 8pm.
yeah msg my dear dear.
hee.
dear im back le!
=D
yeah meeting him SOON!!!
later...
=p



now.
i miss my relatives, cousins, nieces and nephews le.
hai.
=(
de qi.(2 yrs)

de guan.(6 yrs) <- naughtiest! BTH!
hui en aka vivan.(8 yrs) <- naughty. quite pretty. like her mum.
en huan.(3 yrs)
jun liang.(4 yrs) <- cutest! love him most! =P
jun ming.(5 yrs) <- naughtiest! BTH!
they are all my niece and nephews.
pls rmb mi when i go back next year kk?
hee!
=P